I began to wander around China in 2007. In those 3 years, I have changed, and so has Osho in China.
In 2007 I began to wander around China to share Osho’s meditations. In a southern city, there was a girl who would come to do Dynamic meditation every morning, she would do it totally and completely. After the meditation she would feel great relief and power, but her daily life became more chaotic and miserable. Finally it became clear that the channel of her energy had not changed. She was accustomed to use her energy for misery. Before she had little energy, so the misery was little. Now doing the Dynamic certainly increased her energy, but the misery seemed to increase as well.
Suddenly aware of this one day, we both burst into laughter. Why we do meditation is far more significant than how we do it!
During that time I thought the only way to show an interest in transformation was not to talk or think about meditation, but simply to do it. In this I imagined I was behaving as an honest and brave warrior. However one day whilst on the Chinese road I was talking to a friend. I found myself complaining that everybody talks but no one takes action, including that friend. . Finally he got angry, I suddenly realized I am not here on the Chinese road sharing Osho meditations where I can simply to quarrel, so I apologised. Then he said:”Most people cannot simply move into meditation, however what they need is not judgement and condemnation but understanding and compassion.” This shocked me as a hit, I thanked him and laughed and changed my definition of growth. Since then if somebody asks me how I measure my growth through meditation? I answer:”The people that once I judged get less and less.”
In this period of wandering I again encountered the fear of no money. I tried an experiment this time – just relax and wait and see. However as the money became less and less, I became more and more anxious. There was an inner tension urging me to do something, but I persisted. Then when the money was almost no more, for some reason I suddenly relaxed! When money decreases to the bottom, it becomes zero, then it cannot decrease any more. The only change for it now is to increase, the question simply becomes when and how. Somehow a subtle peace arose in me, the fear of the unknown changed into a trust of the existence. And soon the money came, and I found the unknown is really a wonder!
Ever since I was interested in spirituality, I thought I was different from worldly people. My lifestyle was courageous and rebellious, they were just cowards avoiding themselves. But when I asked their attitude towards my own lifestyle – they said I was just a coward avoiding living in the world. Amazing! On the surface the way we live was different, but the way we think of each other was just the same! By and by I found what I experienced in my lifestyle, they also experienced in society! It is the same source with different expressions, it should be appreciated and celebrated. The way to be unique is not to be different from others but to be the same as oneself.
Once turning in the road, I met a Chinese lover of Krishnamurti. We had a nice talking and deep communion. This sounds a miracle because the meeting of an Osho lover and a Krishnamurti lover is often a quarrel! We talked of the event when Krishnamurti and Osho,when they were in the same city did not come to see each other. I laughed and said:”These two old guys are so petty,why take it so seriously? But I think the real reason was that they were too old to travel! What they did not do, we have done today.”
And what is my report after wandering where the existence took me these three years on the by-roads and highways of China? … Something of Osho is coming true in China, stealthily and peacefully and silently.
In 2007, the autobiography of Osho—— “Osho’s life”,with 1500 pages — was completely translated into Chinese. Some of his books on Lao Tzu, Chuang Tzu, and Zen have been published again. There are about 70 ebooks of Osho in the Chinese language available online, and also a lot of his audios and videos. The lovers of Osho can communicate and share with each other through bbs; many foreign sannyasins have been invited to hold workshops in China in an irregular way but it is happening……
Moreover, Osho is not just the name of Osho. To me, he represents the whole of life. Maybe somebody does not know Osho and meditation, but anybody will know life, love and laughter. So the situation here is no longer something to fight or fear but to love and transform.
So for a while I seem to have stopped wandering but it is now in my bones -
“Life is not a problem to be solved but a mystery to be lived” – and a joke to be joked!!!