It took me a while to decide to write this, but in the end I thought it’s worth talking about honestly and clearly. Many of the older sannyasins still clearly remember what it was like while Osho was alive, and appreciate the deep marks that he left on our lives. In a way the pages of SannyasNews are littered with people trying to make sense of their existence without Osho, and what we see here is a range of attitudes, I’m sure some enterprising scholar could make an article out of it.
Some sannyasins at the time went directly to find a new ‘living source’ of the word and ended up with Papaji in Lucknow. I know him only from reading his books and a few documentaries (such as this noteworthy one, titled ‘Call Off The Search’: https://youtu.be/dBIK-VFvDhA ) but I’ve come to appreciate the direct style of his teaching. I’d say these sannyasins were lucky, such figures do not come along that often.
Many of the sannyasins I know did not do this, but rather stayed with Osho’s teachings, to live with creativity and awareness, making a living as a mathematics teacher or illustrator or photographer or candle maker. Talks I’ve had with them were of the nature that Osho was their guru, the one, the Master. Now each of us walks his own path, but I feel that while I live I can investigate other sources of spiritual wisdom.
In a way, Osho himself taught us to cast the net widely, by talking about Sufism, Tao, Zen, Buddhism, everything from the Gospel of Thomas to the Bauls. Of course he had a unique viewpoint on the topics he discussed, his own interpretation of the stories and the teachings. So I choose to go further afield, I’ve investigated Buddhism, Thich Nhat Hanh, Adyashanti, UG Krishnamurti, and am now digging into non-dual teachers.
Probably this is an oft-walked path, reading the works of other teachers and finding out what amongst their teachings is wise. Yet I choose to be ‘a light unto myself’ and try not to get dragged along by a persuasive telling of ‘how the world is supposed to be’. So I return every so often, at regular intervals, to Osho’s books, in order to refresh my view through the lens of sannyas. It’s like a cleansing of the palate, to keep an eye on Osho’s unique vision.
The thing is, as long as you can keep from getting dragged away into other teachers’ views, and can take on board their fragments of wisdom without just falling into ‘acceptance mode’ and absorbing a whole book, you will still be able to keep what Osho tried to impart to us in your being.
For me, these new teachers inject a fresh approach every once in a while… I don’t know when my seeking will end. I thought UG was the end, but it seems there is still something unanswered, some aspect of living a spiritual life which has left me unsatisfied. I know that the focus of my search has shifted, from looking at what is beyond death and what gets left behind in this world, to just the living itself.
Yahoo! There I meet Osho again, he comes on my path once more.