I did not know they did individual therapy in Poona 1, thought they did only groups. What was is it – counselling?

I guess it was not easy because you had no psychological education. I heard there were sannyasins in madhouses, is that so?

For the first time in my life I could honestly say that I had found my vocation and was fulfilled by my role. I loved my work, which was more than just the therapy I was practising. I had found a platform to share from on a professional level. Then disaster struck in the form of a terrible illness. I had to devote all my personal energy to staying alive. It took two years to dig myself out of that hellish hole, by which time I had lost contact with my work and my life went in a new direction.

I suppose I could have worked to get back to my work, but I did not. It is a source of some small regret, but there in no sense in crying over spilled milk. Milk another cow.

Today my energies are focused closer to home. I enjoy what I have. Each day is precious. Yes, I do believe I have something to share. How I share that is in my day-to-day life and simple social interaction with the people I happen to meet. We think we do things in life but really things just happen. Perhaps a situation will arise wherein I can take it a step further. I leave that up to fate. If an opening appears I will be open to it. If not, that is also fine.

In general. I see that it is very human to think that you are more important than you are in the greater scheme of things. Fortunately, I live in a place where there is little in the way of light pollution. I often go outside at night, look up and see the Milky Way. For me, that is a good reminder of where I stand in the 3D universe. I thank my lucky stars for that vast expanse that provides a vision that keeps things in a healthy perspective.

My question is when few others can create Sannyas group intensive, why not you? Do these people have degree or higher calling that you’re lacking?

Acting/drama deals in fiction but this is not necessarily the same as falsehood or lying. Acting/drama is valued for the emotional and experiential engagement it can generate, for its power in the experiential realm. It can make you experience things more intensely, make you see the world differently, shed new light on old problems.

In a broad sense, it can make you feel better when you feel bad. A good actor can do this: indeed, the ability to alter people’s feelings is what ‘good’ means in acting terms.

Thus, what must a good spiritual healer/catalyst of any sort do?

Honest versions even from head are million times more authentic than bogus bullshit of so-called heart.

Surely human ego is very funny, Swamis and Mas and ex-Swamis and ex -mammis too are human. Are not they?
Maybe they are not human but New Man, New Woman!

So he doesn’t “get” darshan Osho, who is loving and down to earth.
He only likes the pulpit Osho, and he especially likes his theories and words.

He is bored during darshan.

But somehow, somehow… Deva Ashok does not see that the problem lies with him.
Doesn’t see that because he is “in the mind”, he is missing.

No, the problem is Osho. There are two Oshos, one that Ashok likes, and one that Ashok doesn’t like.

It is never Ashok that is somehow missing something. Not even when countless other sannyasins come out of darshan “blissed out”, not even then does Ashok question: “maybe there is something wrong with me. Maybe I am too much in the mind.”

The human ego is so funny.
It’s always someone’s else’s fault.

1. the writing of the lives of the saints
2. biography of the saints
3. any biography that idealizes or idolizes its subject